While people are out there celebrating, I'm in here with blankets. I don't know how the hell I got sick.
I wanna blog about what I've learn in 2009. and it's not because someone asked me to. LOL. -_-
kay. what I've learn.
-that you can't trust anyone, 1 maybe, with a secret especially if it's about the person you like. because sometimes joking can lead to serious serious things.
- that every good thing comes to an end.
- that people who you've put as your screen savers or wallpapers or whatever shit don't feel that same way about you. so don't be so proud having awesome friends or family.
- that everyone, even people who you idolize, can be assholes and not everyone is goddamn perfect.
- that people are people no matter how nasty they can be
- that even the most beautiful, nicest, people have haters.
- and last but not least, I've learn that life is like a wheel. It spins round. One minute you're on top and just having the time of your life and the next thing, you're down there dreading every second for breathing.
- not all best friends are right.
And so, I've learn my lesson, good and bad. and the second last lesson struck me when I least thought it would. When you steal someone's best friend, and you think it's okay because we're sharing but it's not. It hurts the person. and now, you're here and someone else is with your best friend and you realize that it actually does hurts.
and thus, this leads to actually seeing how some of your best friends are not what you need. some are completely full of themselves. while some are just not worth it.
and so, ending this very sarcastic note, I'm sorry for hurting your feelings, all of you, through the whole of 2009. Hope you people will forgive me and we shall start fresh next year. more hating, more forgiving and more smiles.
=D

In life, as in art, some endings are bittersweet. Especially when it comes to love. Sometimes fate throws two lovers together only to rip them apart. Sometimes the hero finally makes the right choice but the timing is all wrong. And, as they say, timing is everything. Looks like this story might just have a second act. Let's hope it's not a tragedy.

"But the worst thing the truth can do? Is when you finally tell it, it doesn't set you free... but locks you away, forever."

the last day of 2009.
I'm thinking.
and maybe if I look at the bright side, things can be okay.
it's not like it's the end of the world. right?
But teachers and school still suck.

David Cook: " RT @likewhoaxox @thedavidcook are you avoiding my question about orange soda? (: / maybe... :)"

Miss Sha thinks that it's a pity I didn't get into the same class as Fifi.
Well, teachers are all hopeless.
principles are even worse.
wth am I saying?
wait. no. its true!

Blair: Chuck plays the cheating bastard and I play the scorned woman. I even get to choose who to humiliate! Models, tourists, Upper West Siders ...
Serena: I don't know if anyone ever told you this, but the honeymoon is supposed to end, it's not real. The real part is after the honeymoon ends, when you settle down with someone, the three-month milestone.
Blair: It's not a milestone, it's a gravestone.

"Kalau asik2 nak bawak beg kecik, tkya skolah sudah."

You know what? I told my mum that maybe I'm bringing a small bag for first day of school and she said that. WTH seh. but idk what to bring for first day of school. takkan nak bawak sumer buku kan? Please tell me what you guys will be bringing.
And then, she's pressuring me to study or go through my books. Let me tell you something mum, 3/4 of my friends are out there and have never even touched their books. They don't even know how it's like. Even if school were to start tomorrow, I wouldn't start studying so soon.
And she also pressures me to read malay books and newspaper. Every time I see a book i'm interested in she asks me to go the library. And plus, i really don't give a damn anymore. I've lose hope in malay a long long time ago. Maybe this is a little of my fault so I don't blame my mother.
And then also, she wants to me cut my hair real short. i mean, like, seriously, those china dolls type. And when I show what kind of hair I waant she objects saying that i'm a student.
tell me why are we so different? I love her but she has to understand me.
And my dad is always stressing about us fighting everyday. because our opinion are just too different and both are hard head so none wants to give in. Hey, it's my life. although she's my mother, she can't force me into something I hate.
and I don't know why the hell I'm writing all this down. Haiz. I just wish my mother understands me like how my father does.

"East View kat mane?"
"tampines."
"jauh nyer. kenape tak skola sini? tak dapat?"
"dapat Fuchun tapi tknah ah."
"Fuchun? Tkya sudah. baik takya tukar."

Ah.
I want to see Boys Like Girls.
I want to so much!
I need!
I use the money I got sudah.
Zhaf just came back from Thailand. I just made "friends" with Nuril. I'm disturbing everyone on Facebook.
God, mira, get a life!

"you better shut up before I put you in the store..... Argh! that's it!"
"AYAH!!!!!!!!!!!"
dammit. my brother is seriously getting on my nerves.
Went to school just now to take the check. planned to go with amirah and then we were going to head out to lepak. But she asked me to follow her go watch Alvin and Chipmunks with Yani, Nad and aten but I can't. I'm going hospital. plus, i need to go send my library book. and plus, Kl said that she was coming.


OMG. HELL IS STARTING!

Dear you,
I want to cut connection us. I have think about this cook-cook. I know I clap one hand only. Correctly, I have seen you and she walk-walk together at town with eyes myself. You grab hand she. You always ask for apology back-back. I don't trust you again! You are really crocodile land.
My friend speak you play wood three. first-first I think my friend lie me. But now I know you correct-correct play wood three. So, I break connection to pull my body from this love triangle.
I know this result I pick is very correct. Because you love she high from me. So, I cut this connection to go from from here. I don't want you to play-play with my liver. I have been crying until no more eye water thinking about you. I don't want banana to fruit two times.

Safe walk...


HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DAVID COOK!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAVID ARCHULETA!

I'm watching Singapore Idol now.
Boring or what?
I just wanna skiip to the results.
ha. I now then follow the show.

I suddenly remembered of the time me and my cousins got chased by some policemen because they thought we were taking drugs. Haha. I'm not sure if I have wrote it here, but i don't care anyways. It's time to refresh the memory.
We, four of us, were bored so decided to go around. At that time, we were in the hospital at SGH. And then we went to 7Eleven and Polar and took a few things like cream, everything and anything that was free. And then we went to the staircase and we mixed the things up and dared each other to taste it. And after some time, we didn't realize that there was a camera there, I mean, why would they have a camera at the staircase? So, two or three policemen came from upstairs and shouted at us. They must have thought we were taking drugs or something because of the whole hiding at the staircase thing. We screamed and burst out of the door splitting up running into different places. LOL. It was so funny how we burst out of the door and everyone at Polar was looking at us and some were so shocked they jumped. Haha. Okay, we were young and dumb at that point that was why we ran. I mean, we didn't really do anything wrong so we shouldn't run. But we did anyways. I ran into the cafeteria. and I was the first to reach upstairs to my grandmother's ward. and I thought the others were caught. but they came afterward and then we laughed our butts off. I think I remember some of our conversations.
Hajar :Mira, mira, gi mane?
Me: Mira masuk cafeteria abeh gi toilet. Korang?
Hasbul: police tu keja abang. abang sembunyi ah.
Hajar: hajar naek lift.
Hasanah: akak masuk toilet yang kat depan.
Me: Hahahaha. kelakar sey, kiteorng lari kluar pintu.
hassbul: abul lagi jatuh macam superman depan orang tu.
me: abeh tadi nyonya tu terlompat terus marah kiteorng.
I wish I remember more and that we can do it again sometime.

I almost got some sleep but Amirah sms-ed me and so I layan her and then we chatted for some time.
I'm so sick and tired and IDK what's happening and i have it for two times already and I'm really stressed out and mood sings are terrible this month and I'm not ready for school and I wish Singapore suddenly had a big snow storm or H1N1 suddenly increase so we wouldn't need to go back to school.

"It takes time to realize what you just realize."

I realized that in times like this, people who I want to be there for me, isn't here.
I realized that not everyone comes back the way they were after a long break away from everyone.
I realized that friendship doesn't last long the way you thought it would.
&
I realized that realizing you as a best friend was just a stupid decision.

Hell begins soon enough .
WHY IS MY COMPUTER LACKING !?

"Sometimes it's hard to see the lines we've drawn until we've crossed them. That's when we rely on the ones we love to pull us back and give us something to hold onto. Then there are the clearly marked lines. The ones that if you dare cross, you may never find your way back."

Fifty Cent's son is twenty five cents.
"You have a son, what is he half a quarter?"
"twenty five cents."
"twenty five cents and your fifty?"
"He got that nickname we call two five."
"You're very very cute, you know this right?"
"Do you have a boyfriend? this would be great, like I deserve you."
Hahas. I love Chelsea handlers jokes.

"I wanted to cut all ties with you." - Bestie.
"If this is it, this must be it. It's alright. you have to be strong. Everything happens for a reason." - Bestie.
I guess I'm still mad and disappointed. but I can't do anything.
I guess, like what someone said, if this is it, this must be it.
and to the other you, I'm happy that you're happy and that I'm sorry for being selfish. But now, you're happy. And that's all it matters right?

Watched Paranormal Activity.
Awesome. Seriously.
If you're scared, don't watch it alone.

ARGH ! STUPID LAH !
i'm not gonna waste my time there.
i'm gonna fail that thing. i swear.
i don't care, ite or whatever shit.
what's the point anyway right?
they just throw me there.

I'm so freaking sad that it feels like the earth just hates me in every possible way there is.
Byebye hopes.
Hello nightmare.
Hello Art.
ByeBye DNT
fuck the stupid appeal. wasted my fucking time for fucking nothing.

RIP BRITTANY MURPHY.

What happens when Singapore runs out of land for people to die?
Why are some people so cruel?
Why must love be so painful?
How did I lose my best friend?

Haha. i got no other pictures. who want come my house? we go swim then have BBQ? Hahas. i think i'm going back JB soon. stpuid lawyer.

HELLO!
Just came back from JB. Again.
I got new phone! Wooo!
Not X2 or X1 but at least, I wanted it from last time.
=DDDD

Arh!
I'm so sad Shane Spark got arrested.
how?!
why he so stupid.
:'(
Also, I'm sad because school is starting
I need to find new school bad. Anyone know where got nice bag? I think I want go the t1 shop. Causeway boring arh.

Wth, can my eyes go any more sepet? Irritating arh. It looks like I'm closing my eyes when I smile. become like ben already. '-_-
Yes, I am finally home from JB.
Stupid. didn't get to swim, astro kena cut. nothing to do.
the checkpoint jam like shit.
alot of cars try to cut the line. stupid right?
then got this one driver angry with another driver behind him because he never let the car go in. who ask him to be stupid go lorry lane? He go open his window and start cursing2 and show the finger. everyone look at him. the driver behind relax one corner. Hahas. My father laughed and then passed his car, the stupid guy, and dance around. Haha. basket sey. people angry, he go make fun. ahh. that's my father :D stupid drivers so impatient.

Currently reading Someone Like you by sarah dessen.
Waiting for I know it's over by C. K kelly Martin.
The person never send me seh.
irritating arh.
:S
I think next year is going to be wild.
And I had a great time talking crap with Fifi. How long have I laughed that much?
Yesterday night.
Hahas.
Kay. crap.
I'm bored.
Any other good books?
GG, when can I watch you again?
Going back JB tomorrow. '-_-
Won't be coming back till Mon or Sun. Hopefully Sunday.

Anyone got this letter? If so, please tell me.
I swear I don't know what I did.
Stupid MOE probably got the wrong girl.
Alaaa. If kena go stage I don't wantt lahh.
Alaaa.
See lah... I'm so scared already.
Well, bright side, I got money :DDD

HA HA PADAN MUKER. YOU KNOW. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY I BOTHER.

I think this looks nice. But Taylor Swift doesn't look like Taylor Swift.

Hey.
I'm getting my new phone next year.
Sad seh.
But I can use my other phone while waiting.
Kay. I want SonyE x1, you know like Blair's phone. But the person say the phone terrible because always spoil. so... Idk seh. hancur ah. I really want that stupid phone.. Nvm. Got SonyE X2. Hehe. IDC uh. spoilspoil. X2 or W508, it's just a normal ipod looking phone, for my Bdae. :DDD

"Ah. Ah. "

"Ape?"
"Ade perumpuan aje..... "
Haha. Kay. just came home from the Hospital.
i was walking next to a guy then he suddenly.... Idk.... fall? Like walk out of control. Haha. I shocked skejap. then the father said that. Haha. I quickly walk off after hearing what the father said laughing like crazy.
sms2 Hazimah. and she's really stressed. Well, I am too. she told me about a few things happening.. even teachers are complaining about that thing. okay teachers, if you're complaining then why did you make that decision? someone, help.
I wanna go overseas study :(

"Hello. I'm stuck in the elevator with someone who sucks all the air out of the room. Send help or I'll be dead within the hour."

I love you, Chuck.

Zhaf just asked if I was going to the class outing. I know what he wants really. it'll be like this. trust me.
"Hi, kau gi class outing?"
"tak ah. kau?"
"(IDK what his ans will be.) um. Fifi gi?"
"aku taktau ah."
"Oh okay. bye."
I haven't reply him. maybe i should just cut straight. "I'm not going and Idk if fifi gi ke tak."
Or maybe, i should just wait till he's online on msn.
i don't like it when people actually act like they really care when they don't.
Yeah. I'm not going for the class outing. No mood? something like that.

I'm addicted to this.
<3<3
Reading the other boy - hailey abbott
while downloading GossipGirl
Also am very frustrated with someone.
What a bitch. seriously sey.

WTF do you want with me, DARYL?
What, saying "amira. yo. bye." is going to get my attention?
because you just realized how long it has it been since you actually gave a damn about me or any other people for that matter?
What are you trying to do?
Get me on my nerves?
Get me say, "Hey, what's up, it's been a long time since we chat, how are you?" and wait for your reply hoping to hear from what used to be my best friend?
I don't know you anymore. I guess I never did.
I missed your calls. Okay? I admit. I missed you. But that was then. Now.... IDC. I have better people to be with than you.
You're a total jerk. and people like you are total attention seekers.
Well. there. i said it.
go die.

Amira . says:
hmph. wadeva.
KhaiBrokenHeartedGuy says:
anything , dear
Amira . says:
whatever, sweetie.
KhaiBrokenHeartedGuy says:
hahaha
Amira . says:
Haha. ape lah kiteorng mepek?

kay. see. this is exactly what you do when you chat with your best friend at night when both of you are rotting away.
Hahas. Khai mepek ah.

And, also being completely bored and being on MSN leads to :
Raymond:
Hahas gud girl hee xD
Amira . says:
i am good what. Haha. who say i bad?
Raymond:
Hee xD
I gt say u bad meh hee xD nt everybody gud leh hee xD
Amira . says:
haha. i angel mah. you don't know? no lah. just joking.
-
Hahas. I don't even know who this guy is. He asked for my number once though.

I hate myself now for being this way. I know it's the way life goes but still... I can't bare it all.
I can't say your name. scared of what might come.
I can't see your pictures because I can't bring myself to life.
I know it's long. and I know that i've not spoke about you for a long time.
But i can't accept it.
If I had known, i would have held your hands tighter.
If I had known, I would have been there next to you everyday after school.
If I had known, I would have talked to you more than I always did.
I wished that I could replay everything over again. the way you laughed. the way you smiled.
I still remembered how everyone made a huge fuzz over who to bring you over. Haha. It's stupid, don't you think?
I remembered how you told me about those stories of wars and how you actually went through them. I admired you, you know. I really do.
I love you because you're just so much better than the others.
I was there when you were gone. When everyone had gone out of the room, trying to regain conscious, I was there still capturing whatever that happened. I saw man crying. I saw you in a way I shouldn't. I saw things that never should be in that way. You looked so pale. So sick. I wished it was all just a lie and that I'd see you breathing or at least you'd opened your eyes. I didn't care if i was alone in the room with you. I wasn't scared. I just needed you back in the world with me.
How long has it been since you left me? 1 year? or more?
Much like that.
Without you, it's crazy. everyone's different. I don't know. it's like when you left, you brought along part of us with you.
But after some time. everything went back to the way it was. I wonder if it's wrong. that I'm starting to forget how it felt like to touch your hands and hold you tight when you're feeling unstable. I wonder is it normal for me to avoid everything that involves you. as much as I missed you, I can't stand the truth now;
That you're gone. and what used to be won't come back.

"Pergi Pontian? Nak?"
"PONTIANAK?!"

Just came back from JB.
Tired sey.
anyways, i'm so sad. i'm so dark now. stupid lah. i go swimming for so long.
and also, i didn't bring back my books back. and my wallet. stupid right? haiyoos.
wow. now then miss sha say bout the class outing. i have no mood sey. nak gi ke tak eh?
are you going?
Oh yeah. the stupid mixpod seriously irritating. i have to use the music video widget.

Fifi: Amira! * stead with blablablaba.
Haha. Fifi, I already know and I already laughed.
My aunt's condition is getting worse. and then news came that another family member was admitted into another hospital. and then another news came that my cousin's car was smashed and her things were taken. Her laptop, her phone, passport, everything. Bad luck seh.
So. I won't have the time to change the skin. I have one and in the process of editing it. because of MixPod it'll have to wait. plus, i seriously have no time since i need to go to the hospital.
andand, my aunt, the one whose in the hospital with the coma. Idk but there's something weird. it's like... you know supernatural things. when an uztad came and did his prayers the heart thing went really noisy. and then my mom also mentioned that whenever she's sees her, there's this scary feeling. I went in there once. since it's ICU, can only go in two by two. I wasn't scared. but idk, it's this feeling of seeing everything at one. How to say? like your head just wants to explore the whole room and not the patient. Haha. It's either something strange or it's me being a complete jerk at the hospital. but still. if you think about it, I found out that she has that thing in her once. and i also found out that that thing in her haven't escape . So... who knows?

Do you like it when you're right?
Haha.
I like it, of course.
I knew they wouldn't last long. it was such a joke yesterday and today, it became more hilarious. Kay. I'm being evil . but seriously, padan mukerr ko!
Kay. dad spared me yesterday so luckily me. I didn't get the strokes. But he gave warnings. -_-
just now went to school to buy school book.
Saw Yani, Atiqah, atifah, fee, syafiqah zaki and some other people.
then after that went valentino sale. my family has this thing for Valentino things. Idk why.
I bought 3 shirts and 2 belts. And the rest, my father and brother spent. at first the cashier say seven thousand plus. haha. We shocked like what. then she count again, 154. I can't believe the boys spent so much.
my aunt's in hospital. she have coma. hope she'll be fine. should I go today? nah. tomorrow lah I go, sarah's going tomorrow. Hahas. and hopefully, Hassbul and Hafiz?

Haha. Wth? I got nothing better to do than editing my pictures like this.

Can I ask you a question?
How many times have I been canned this year?
3? 4? 5?
Well. Guess what? that number is increasing soon enough.
countdown: 2omins till dad gets home.
I should feel scared but it's going to be painful anyways. and then after a few weeks or days, the pain goes off.
chey, talk like some professional.
okay. let's hope my father will spare me.

"I got no topics to talk about. NOT LIKE you people out there who screw yourself going out everyday getting laid by STD guys."
Haha. sedap pe kenek? Haha. this is why Sabrina is awesome.
Haha. to all you bitches out there.

stupid. My brother won the bet.
the skin is not nice.
trying to find a new one.
but boring arh, no new and nice2 one.
and i'm thinking of having back a Cbox since many people have complaint.
but idk, because I wanna put my twitter box.
kay. i'll see how it goes.

I bet $1 with my brother is he's gonna talk to Maliki Osman, the woodland MP since he's doing this whatever talk downstairs. Haha. I should have bet on more.

Hey!
went out with dearest bestie, Atikah.
the feeling of meeting back a really old friend is really awesome.
it's like... You just find yourself being the person who you used to be. Get it? arh. nvm2.
We watched NewMoon. Haha. At first planned 2012 but stupid website made wrong timings so ended up watching New Moon. I don't mind, seriously. I love it and seriously don't mind watching it over and over again. I could just drool watching Taylor Lautner. Hahas. And today then I realize how cute and handsome those guys in the wolf gang. Hahas. and the volturi guy, what's his name? IDk. the one say to the woman bringing in the group on people.
and I watched these New moon spoofs a few other days and couldn't stop myself from smiling or laughing silently at serious scenes. Hahas!
Hey atikah, you shouldn't feel bad. I don't mind watching Taylor Lautner and his wolf gang again and again. Hahas. and thank you for the awesome threat. I loved the choc! and really, you shouldn't have paid me half of the ticket price.
anyways, went to Lib and KFC too with her. had a great time.
Kay. IDk why, but i've been seriously looking kind of tired... and... dark? as in, maybe my skin darkened or something like that. No more late nights lahh. and leeseen caffeine. Haha, yeah right.

Hey!

Went out with Fifi and Nadiah to watch New Moon.
Had a great time catching with gossips and stories.
i just love my girls.
Hahas.
New Moon was..... I just LOVE Taylor Lautner. Ahh. Hahas. but I don't know ah, i don't like see RobertPatz. It's soo... to much make up or something. He kind of bugs me throughout the movie.
then went back home. went to the field. went up hill. haha. then went back home with them. Had a great dayy. And2, my brother want to "kenal2" with Nad. Hahahas. When Nad and Fifi went home, my family disturbed the hell out of him.

God. I can't waitt lahh.
Next year. This is like the second time I posted this trailer on my blog I think. It's awesome. Arhh. So sad and so romantic. Kay. halfway reading the book. Nicholas Spark is a genius

My girls and I are going to watch NewMoon tomorrow. I'm excited but many said the NewMoon was bad. Really really bad. I'll give my comments tomorrow. too bad Atiqah won't be going. She said she don't want or got no money or something like that. It's strange you know. I just got a dream that me and her were talking on the phone and when I said Nadiah is following she was like so excited to go and... don't know like she really haven't met Nadiah for a really long time. Oh well. she's always with her NCD friends what.

Damn Ed.
You're freaking hawt.

"and then Hakim? His school is far from here. you want him to change school?"
"East View! Hakim can go East View!"
It'd be kind of awesome to have Hakim in the same school. although NT but still.
And how i wish Hafiz would take EastView next two years. It'd be awesome you know.

You go girl ! Leighton is THE best.

Dad, you know strongly how I feel about him.

its 1230am and I'm still watching GGseason 3.
Hahas.

It's 1130 and I've got nothing better to do.
Hahas. You should watch it. it's hilarious. I'm a fan but a joke won't hurt.
Haha.
My bro and me cannot stop laughing out loud. my parents woke up to shut us up.

Hey.

Had a fun chat with Ain and Suryani today.
I hate to be on MSN. because of that guy.
Kaes. anyways.
Ain said she already have the third season of GossipGirl DVD. I'm so jealous seh!
But guess what? I've talked to my dad and he said he's going to buy for me. Weee. Actually right, can purchase at Mio you know. Just $5plus. But guess dad knows what he's doing.
Andand, it's sad to say that the silver car will not be ours anymore. And having the redcar back.
And Will be wathcing NewMoon with Krakatoa.
Andand 2012, so long already but who cares, with Atikah.

I can't believe i'm saying this but anyone know where to download songs at?
It sucks that the old comp can't be used. argggh.
and i hate how my property became "ours"
maybe this is a bad thing after all.

While people are out there celebrating, I'm in here with blankets. I don't know how the hell I got sick.
I wanna blog about what I've learn in 2009. and it's not because someone asked me to. LOL. -_-
kay. what I've learn.
-that you can't trust anyone, 1 maybe, with a secret especially if it's about the person you like. because sometimes joking can lead to serious serious things.
- that every good thing comes to an end.
- that people who you've put as your screen savers or wallpapers or whatever shit don't feel that same way about you. so don't be so proud having awesome friends or family.
- that everyone, even people who you idolize, can be assholes and not everyone is goddamn perfect.
- that people are people no matter how nasty they can be
- that even the most beautiful, nicest, people have haters.
- and last but not least, I've learn that life is like a wheel. It spins round. One minute you're on top and just having the time of your life and the next thing, you're down there dreading every second for breathing.
- not all best friends are right.
And so, I've learn my lesson, good and bad. and the second last lesson struck me when I least thought it would. When you steal someone's best friend, and you think it's okay because we're sharing but it's not. It hurts the person. and now, you're here and someone else is with your best friend and you realize that it actually does hurts.
and thus, this leads to actually seeing how some of your best friends are not what you need. some are completely full of themselves. while some are just not worth it.
and so, ending this very sarcastic note, I'm sorry for hurting your feelings, all of you, through the whole of 2009. Hope you people will forgive me and we shall start fresh next year. more hating, more forgiving and more smiles.
=D

In life, as in art, some endings are bittersweet. Especially when it comes to love. Sometimes fate throws two lovers together only to rip them apart. Sometimes the hero finally makes the right choice but the timing is all wrong. And, as they say, timing is everything. Looks like this story might just have a second act. Let's hope it's not a tragedy.

"But the worst thing the truth can do? Is when you finally tell it, it doesn't set you free... but locks you away, forever."

the last day of 2009.
I'm thinking.
and maybe if I look at the bright side, things can be okay.
it's not like it's the end of the world. right?
But teachers and school still suck.

David Cook: " RT @likewhoaxox @thedavidcook are you avoiding my question about orange soda? (: / maybe... :)"

Miss Sha thinks that it's a pity I didn't get into the same class as Fifi.
Well, teachers are all hopeless.
principles are even worse.
wth am I saying?
wait. no. its true!

Blair: Chuck plays the cheating bastard and I play the scorned woman. I even get to choose who to humiliate! Models, tourists, Upper West Siders ...
Serena: I don't know if anyone ever told you this, but the honeymoon is supposed to end, it's not real. The real part is after the honeymoon ends, when you settle down with someone, the three-month milestone.
Blair: It's not a milestone, it's a gravestone.

"Kalau asik2 nak bawak beg kecik, tkya skolah sudah."

You know what? I told my mum that maybe I'm bringing a small bag for first day of school and she said that. WTH seh. but idk what to bring for first day of school. takkan nak bawak sumer buku kan? Please tell me what you guys will be bringing.
And then, she's pressuring me to study or go through my books. Let me tell you something mum, 3/4 of my friends are out there and have never even touched their books. They don't even know how it's like. Even if school were to start tomorrow, I wouldn't start studying so soon.
And she also pressures me to read malay books and newspaper. Every time I see a book i'm interested in she asks me to go the library. And plus, i really don't give a damn anymore. I've lose hope in malay a long long time ago. Maybe this is a little of my fault so I don't blame my mother.
And then also, she wants to me cut my hair real short. i mean, like, seriously, those china dolls type. And when I show what kind of hair I waant she objects saying that i'm a student.
tell me why are we so different? I love her but she has to understand me.
And my dad is always stressing about us fighting everyday. because our opinion are just too different and both are hard head so none wants to give in. Hey, it's my life. although she's my mother, she can't force me into something I hate.
and I don't know why the hell I'm writing all this down. Haiz. I just wish my mother understands me like how my father does.

"East View kat mane?"
"tampines."
"jauh nyer. kenape tak skola sini? tak dapat?"
"dapat Fuchun tapi tknah ah."
"Fuchun? Tkya sudah. baik takya tukar."

Ah.
I want to see Boys Like Girls.
I want to so much!
I need!
I use the money I got sudah.
Zhaf just came back from Thailand. I just made "friends" with Nuril. I'm disturbing everyone on Facebook.
God, mira, get a life!

"you better shut up before I put you in the store..... Argh! that's it!"
"AYAH!!!!!!!!!!!"
dammit. my brother is seriously getting on my nerves.
Went to school just now to take the check. planned to go with amirah and then we were going to head out to lepak. But she asked me to follow her go watch Alvin and Chipmunks with Yani, Nad and aten but I can't. I'm going hospital. plus, i need to go send my library book. and plus, Kl said that she was coming.


OMG. HELL IS STARTING!

Dear you,
I want to cut connection us. I have think about this cook-cook. I know I clap one hand only. Correctly, I have seen you and she walk-walk together at town with eyes myself. You grab hand she. You always ask for apology back-back. I don't trust you again! You are really crocodile land.
My friend speak you play wood three. first-first I think my friend lie me. But now I know you correct-correct play wood three. So, I break connection to pull my body from this love triangle.
I know this result I pick is very correct. Because you love she high from me. So, I cut this connection to go from from here. I don't want you to play-play with my liver. I have been crying until no more eye water thinking about you. I don't want banana to fruit two times.

Safe walk...


HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DAVID COOK!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAVID ARCHULETA!

I'm watching Singapore Idol now.
Boring or what?
I just wanna skiip to the results.
ha. I now then follow the show.

I suddenly remembered of the time me and my cousins got chased by some policemen because they thought we were taking drugs. Haha. I'm not sure if I have wrote it here, but i don't care anyways. It's time to refresh the memory.
We, four of us, were bored so decided to go around. At that time, we were in the hospital at SGH. And then we went to 7Eleven and Polar and took a few things like cream, everything and anything that was free. And then we went to the staircase and we mixed the things up and dared each other to taste it. And after some time, we didn't realize that there was a camera there, I mean, why would they have a camera at the staircase? So, two or three policemen came from upstairs and shouted at us. They must have thought we were taking drugs or something because of the whole hiding at the staircase thing. We screamed and burst out of the door splitting up running into different places. LOL. It was so funny how we burst out of the door and everyone at Polar was looking at us and some were so shocked they jumped. Haha. Okay, we were young and dumb at that point that was why we ran. I mean, we didn't really do anything wrong so we shouldn't run. But we did anyways. I ran into the cafeteria. and I was the first to reach upstairs to my grandmother's ward. and I thought the others were caught. but they came afterward and then we laughed our butts off. I think I remember some of our conversations.
Hajar :Mira, mira, gi mane?
Me: Mira masuk cafeteria abeh gi toilet. Korang?
Hasbul: police tu keja abang. abang sembunyi ah.
Hajar: hajar naek lift.
Hasanah: akak masuk toilet yang kat depan.
Me: Hahahaha. kelakar sey, kiteorng lari kluar pintu.
hassbul: abul lagi jatuh macam superman depan orang tu.
me: abeh tadi nyonya tu terlompat terus marah kiteorng.
I wish I remember more and that we can do it again sometime.

I almost got some sleep but Amirah sms-ed me and so I layan her and then we chatted for some time.
I'm so sick and tired and IDK what's happening and i have it for two times already and I'm really stressed out and mood sings are terrible this month and I'm not ready for school and I wish Singapore suddenly had a big snow storm or H1N1 suddenly increase so we wouldn't need to go back to school.

"It takes time to realize what you just realize."

I realized that in times like this, people who I want to be there for me, isn't here.
I realized that not everyone comes back the way they were after a long break away from everyone.
I realized that friendship doesn't last long the way you thought it would.
&
I realized that realizing you as a best friend was just a stupid decision.

Hell begins soon enough .
WHY IS MY COMPUTER LACKING !?

"Sometimes it's hard to see the lines we've drawn until we've crossed them. That's when we rely on the ones we love to pull us back and give us something to hold onto. Then there are the clearly marked lines. The ones that if you dare cross, you may never find your way back."

Fifty Cent's son is twenty five cents.
"You have a son, what is he half a quarter?"
"twenty five cents."
"twenty five cents and your fifty?"
"He got that nickname we call two five."
"You're very very cute, you know this right?"
"Do you have a boyfriend? this would be great, like I deserve you."
Hahas. I love Chelsea handlers jokes.

"I wanted to cut all ties with you." - Bestie.
"If this is it, this must be it. It's alright. you have to be strong. Everything happens for a reason." - Bestie.
I guess I'm still mad and disappointed. but I can't do anything.
I guess, like what someone said, if this is it, this must be it.
and to the other you, I'm happy that you're happy and that I'm sorry for being selfish. But now, you're happy. And that's all it matters right?

Watched Paranormal Activity.
Awesome. Seriously.
If you're scared, don't watch it alone.

ARGH ! STUPID LAH !
i'm not gonna waste my time there.
i'm gonna fail that thing. i swear.
i don't care, ite or whatever shit.
what's the point anyway right?
they just throw me there.

I'm so freaking sad that it feels like the earth just hates me in every possible way there is.
Byebye hopes.
Hello nightmare.
Hello Art.
ByeBye DNT
fuck the stupid appeal. wasted my fucking time for fucking nothing.

RIP BRITTANY MURPHY.

What happens when Singapore runs out of land for people to die?
Why are some people so cruel?
Why must love be so painful?
How did I lose my best friend?

Haha. i got no other pictures. who want come my house? we go swim then have BBQ? Hahas. i think i'm going back JB soon. stpuid lawyer.

HELLO!
Just came back from JB. Again.
I got new phone! Wooo!
Not X2 or X1 but at least, I wanted it from last time.
=DDDD

Arh!
I'm so sad Shane Spark got arrested.
how?!
why he so stupid.
:'(
Also, I'm sad because school is starting
I need to find new school bad. Anyone know where got nice bag? I think I want go the t1 shop. Causeway boring arh.

Wth, can my eyes go any more sepet? Irritating arh. It looks like I'm closing my eyes when I smile. become like ben already. '-_-
Yes, I am finally home from JB.
Stupid. didn't get to swim, astro kena cut. nothing to do.
the checkpoint jam like shit.
alot of cars try to cut the line. stupid right?
then got this one driver angry with another driver behind him because he never let the car go in. who ask him to be stupid go lorry lane? He go open his window and start cursing2 and show the finger. everyone look at him. the driver behind relax one corner. Hahas. My father laughed and then passed his car, the stupid guy, and dance around. Haha. basket sey. people angry, he go make fun. ahh. that's my father :D stupid drivers so impatient.

Currently reading Someone Like you by sarah dessen.
Waiting for I know it's over by C. K kelly Martin.
The person never send me seh.
irritating arh.
:S
I think next year is going to be wild.
And I had a great time talking crap with Fifi. How long have I laughed that much?
Yesterday night.
Hahas.
Kay. crap.
I'm bored.
Any other good books?
GG, when can I watch you again?
Going back JB tomorrow. '-_-
Won't be coming back till Mon or Sun. Hopefully Sunday.

Anyone got this letter? If so, please tell me.
I swear I don't know what I did.
Stupid MOE probably got the wrong girl.
Alaaa. If kena go stage I don't wantt lahh.
Alaaa.
See lah... I'm so scared already.
Well, bright side, I got money :DDD

HA HA PADAN MUKER. YOU KNOW. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY I BOTHER.

I think this looks nice. But Taylor Swift doesn't look like Taylor Swift.

Hey.
I'm getting my new phone next year.
Sad seh.
But I can use my other phone while waiting.
Kay. I want SonyE x1, you know like Blair's phone. But the person say the phone terrible because always spoil. so... Idk seh. hancur ah. I really want that stupid phone.. Nvm. Got SonyE X2. Hehe. IDC uh. spoilspoil. X2 or W508, it's just a normal ipod looking phone, for my Bdae. :DDD

"Ah. Ah. "

"Ape?"
"Ade perumpuan aje..... "
Haha. Kay. just came home from the Hospital.
i was walking next to a guy then he suddenly.... Idk.... fall? Like walk out of control. Haha. I shocked skejap. then the father said that. Haha. I quickly walk off after hearing what the father said laughing like crazy.
sms2 Hazimah. and she's really stressed. Well, I am too. she told me about a few things happening.. even teachers are complaining about that thing. okay teachers, if you're complaining then why did you make that decision? someone, help.
I wanna go overseas study :(

"Hello. I'm stuck in the elevator with someone who sucks all the air out of the room. Send help or I'll be dead within the hour."

I love you, Chuck.

Zhaf just asked if I was going to the class outing. I know what he wants really. it'll be like this. trust me.
"Hi, kau gi class outing?"
"tak ah. kau?"
"(IDK what his ans will be.) um. Fifi gi?"
"aku taktau ah."
"Oh okay. bye."
I haven't reply him. maybe i should just cut straight. "I'm not going and Idk if fifi gi ke tak."
Or maybe, i should just wait till he's online on msn.
i don't like it when people actually act like they really care when they don't.
Yeah. I'm not going for the class outing. No mood? something like that.

I'm addicted to this.
<3<3
Reading the other boy - hailey abbott
while downloading GossipGirl
Also am very frustrated with someone.
What a bitch. seriously sey.

WTF do you want with me, DARYL?
What, saying "amira. yo. bye." is going to get my attention?
because you just realized how long it has it been since you actually gave a damn about me or any other people for that matter?
What are you trying to do?
Get me on my nerves?
Get me say, "Hey, what's up, it's been a long time since we chat, how are you?" and wait for your reply hoping to hear from what used to be my best friend?
I don't know you anymore. I guess I never did.
I missed your calls. Okay? I admit. I missed you. But that was then. Now.... IDC. I have better people to be with than you.
You're a total jerk. and people like you are total attention seekers.
Well. there. i said it.
go die.

Amira . says:
hmph. wadeva.
KhaiBrokenHeartedGuy says:
anything , dear
Amira . says:
whatever, sweetie.
KhaiBrokenHeartedGuy says:
hahaha
Amira . says:
Haha. ape lah kiteorng mepek?

kay. see. this is exactly what you do when you chat with your best friend at night when both of you are rotting away.
Hahas. Khai mepek ah.

And, also being completely bored and being on MSN leads to :
Raymond:
Hahas gud girl hee xD
Amira . says:
i am good what. Haha. who say i bad?
Raymond:
Hee xD
I gt say u bad meh hee xD nt everybody gud leh hee xD
Amira . says:
haha. i angel mah. you don't know? no lah. just joking.
-
Hahas. I don't even know who this guy is. He asked for my number once though.

I hate myself now for being this way. I know it's the way life goes but still... I can't bare it all.
I can't say your name. scared of what might come.
I can't see your pictures because I can't bring myself to life.
I know it's long. and I know that i've not spoke about you for a long time.
But i can't accept it.
If I had known, i would have held your hands tighter.
If I had known, I would have been there next to you everyday after school.
If I had known, I would have talked to you more than I always did.
I wished that I could replay everything over again. the way you laughed. the way you smiled.
I still remembered how everyone made a huge fuzz over who to bring you over. Haha. It's stupid, don't you think?
I remembered how you told me about those stories of wars and how you actually went through them. I admired you, you know. I really do.
I love you because you're just so much better than the others.
I was there when you were gone. When everyone had gone out of the room, trying to regain conscious, I was there still capturing whatever that happened. I saw man crying. I saw you in a way I shouldn't. I saw things that never should be in that way. You looked so pale. So sick. I wished it was all just a lie and that I'd see you breathing or at least you'd opened your eyes. I didn't care if i was alone in the room with you. I wasn't scared. I just needed you back in the world with me.
How long has it been since you left me? 1 year? or more?
Much like that.
Without you, it's crazy. everyone's different. I don't know. it's like when you left, you brought along part of us with you.
But after some time. everything went back to the way it was. I wonder if it's wrong. that I'm starting to forget how it felt like to touch your hands and hold you tight when you're feeling unstable. I wonder is it normal for me to avoid everything that involves you. as much as I missed you, I can't stand the truth now;
That you're gone. and what used to be won't come back.

"Pergi Pontian? Nak?"
"PONTIANAK?!"

Just came back from JB.
Tired sey.
anyways, i'm so sad. i'm so dark now. stupid lah. i go swimming for so long.
and also, i didn't bring back my books back. and my wallet. stupid right? haiyoos.
wow. now then miss sha say bout the class outing. i have no mood sey. nak gi ke tak eh?
are you going?
Oh yeah. the stupid mixpod seriously irritating. i have to use the music video widget.

Fifi: Amira! * stead with blablablaba.
Haha. Fifi, I already know and I already laughed.
My aunt's condition is getting worse. and then news came that another family member was admitted into another hospital. and then another news came that my cousin's car was smashed and her things were taken. Her laptop, her phone, passport, everything. Bad luck seh.
So. I won't have the time to change the skin. I have one and in the process of editing it. because of MixPod it'll have to wait. plus, i seriously have no time since i need to go to the hospital.
andand, my aunt, the one whose in the hospital with the coma. Idk but there's something weird. it's like... you know supernatural things. when an uztad came and did his prayers the heart thing went really noisy. and then my mom also mentioned that whenever she's sees her, there's this scary feeling. I went in there once. since it's ICU, can only go in two by two. I wasn't scared. but idk, it's this feeling of seeing everything at one. How to say? like your head just wants to explore the whole room and not the patient. Haha. It's either something strange or it's me being a complete jerk at the hospital. but still. if you think about it, I found out that she has that thing in her once. and i also found out that that thing in her haven't escape . So... who knows?

Do you like it when you're right?
Haha.
I like it, of course.
I knew they wouldn't last long. it was such a joke yesterday and today, it became more hilarious. Kay. I'm being evil . but seriously, padan mukerr ko!
Kay. dad spared me yesterday so luckily me. I didn't get the strokes. But he gave warnings. -_-
just now went to school to buy school book.
Saw Yani, Atiqah, atifah, fee, syafiqah zaki and some other people.
then after that went valentino sale. my family has this thing for Valentino things. Idk why.
I bought 3 shirts and 2 belts. And the rest, my father and brother spent. at first the cashier say seven thousand plus. haha. We shocked like what. then she count again, 154. I can't believe the boys spent so much.
my aunt's in hospital. she have coma. hope she'll be fine. should I go today? nah. tomorrow lah I go, sarah's going tomorrow. Hahas. and hopefully, Hassbul and Hafiz?

Haha. Wth? I got nothing better to do than editing my pictures like this.

Can I ask you a question?
How many times have I been canned this year?
3? 4? 5?
Well. Guess what? that number is increasing soon enough.
countdown: 2omins till dad gets home.
I should feel scared but it's going to be painful anyways. and then after a few weeks or days, the pain goes off.
chey, talk like some professional.
okay. let's hope my father will spare me.

"I got no topics to talk about. NOT LIKE you people out there who screw yourself going out everyday getting laid by STD guys."
Haha. sedap pe kenek? Haha. this is why Sabrina is awesome.
Haha. to all you bitches out there.

stupid. My brother won the bet.
the skin is not nice.
trying to find a new one.
but boring arh, no new and nice2 one.
and i'm thinking of having back a Cbox since many people have complaint.
but idk, because I wanna put my twitter box.
kay. i'll see how it goes.

I bet $1 with my brother is he's gonna talk to Maliki Osman, the woodland MP since he's doing this whatever talk downstairs. Haha. I should have bet on more.

Hey!
went out with dearest bestie, Atikah.
the feeling of meeting back a really old friend is really awesome.
it's like... You just find yourself being the person who you used to be. Get it? arh. nvm2.
We watched NewMoon. Haha. At first planned 2012 but stupid website made wrong timings so ended up watching New Moon. I don't mind, seriously. I love it and seriously don't mind watching it over and over again. I could just drool watching Taylor Lautner. Hahas. And today then I realize how cute and handsome those guys in the wolf gang. Hahas. and the volturi guy, what's his name? IDk. the one say to the woman bringing in the group on people.
and I watched these New moon spoofs a few other days and couldn't stop myself from smiling or laughing silently at serious scenes. Hahas!
Hey atikah, you shouldn't feel bad. I don't mind watching Taylor Lautner and his wolf gang again and again. Hahas. and thank you for the awesome threat. I loved the choc! and really, you shouldn't have paid me half of the ticket price.
anyways, went to Lib and KFC too with her. had a great time.
Kay. IDk why, but i've been seriously looking kind of tired... and... dark? as in, maybe my skin darkened or something like that. No more late nights lahh. and leeseen caffeine. Haha, yeah right.

Hey!

Went out with Fifi and Nadiah to watch New Moon.
Had a great time catching with gossips and stories.
i just love my girls.
Hahas.
New Moon was..... I just LOVE Taylor Lautner. Ahh. Hahas. but I don't know ah, i don't like see RobertPatz. It's soo... to much make up or something. He kind of bugs me throughout the movie.
then went back home. went to the field. went up hill. haha. then went back home with them. Had a great dayy. And2, my brother want to "kenal2" with Nad. Hahahas. When Nad and Fifi went home, my family disturbed the hell out of him.

God. I can't waitt lahh.
Next year. This is like the second time I posted this trailer on my blog I think. It's awesome. Arhh. So sad and so romantic. Kay. halfway reading the book. Nicholas Spark is a genius

My girls and I are going to watch NewMoon tomorrow. I'm excited but many said the NewMoon was bad. Really really bad. I'll give my comments tomorrow. too bad Atiqah won't be going. She said she don't want or got no money or something like that. It's strange you know. I just got a dream that me and her were talking on the phone and when I said Nadiah is following she was like so excited to go and... don't know like she really haven't met Nadiah for a really long time. Oh well. she's always with her NCD friends what.

Damn Ed.
You're freaking hawt.

"and then Hakim? His school is far from here. you want him to change school?"
"East View! Hakim can go East View!"
It'd be kind of awesome to have Hakim in the same school. although NT but still.
And how i wish Hafiz would take EastView next two years. It'd be awesome you know.

You go girl ! Leighton is THE best.

Dad, you know strongly how I feel about him.

its 1230am and I'm still watching GGseason 3.
Hahas.

It's 1130 and I've got nothing better to do.
Hahas. You should watch it. it's hilarious. I'm a fan but a joke won't hurt.
Haha.
My bro and me cannot stop laughing out loud. my parents woke up to shut us up.

Hey.

Had a fun chat with Ain and Suryani today.
I hate to be on MSN. because of that guy.
Kaes. anyways.
Ain said she already have the third season of GossipGirl DVD. I'm so jealous seh!
But guess what? I've talked to my dad and he said he's going to buy for me. Weee. Actually right, can purchase at Mio you know. Just $5plus. But guess dad knows what he's doing.
Andand, it's sad to say that the silver car will not be ours anymore. And having the redcar back.
And Will be wathcing NewMoon with Krakatoa.
Andand 2012, so long already but who cares, with Atikah.

I can't believe i'm saying this but anyone know where to download songs at?
It sucks that the old comp can't be used. argggh.
and i hate how my property became "ours"
maybe this is a bad thing after all.