Fail :(

HAHAHAHAHAHA ! "I don't mean to interrupt. Hi, I'm Ellen." LOL! See when the girl get to hug Katy perry and Ellen kena bilis one side, kelakar giler. LOL ! XD

Looooove . XD All black man but who cares :P

i had the time of my life and i never felt this way before and i swear this is true and i owe it all to youuu. ~

cuz your just my type, oh na na na na

I wanna be a billionaire so freaking badd ~ ;)

i haven't beli buku skolah . have you?

so if i hate your girlfriend for no reason does that me jealous? ohmygod 0.o

all you got to do is cross the line ;)

Conversation took place with me and dad, while he was eating.
XD
"Ayah, tadi adik bace buku science die."
"Buku science?"
"untuk primary 5 next year."
"bagus lah tu."
"tapi die ketawe2."
"kenape?"
"pasal die cumer bace psal reproduction. abeh die ketawe pasal die nampak the word penis"
*Dad tersedak and cough.*
"abeh die tk tau sebut the word vagina. Abeh die tunjuk2 mira gambar dalam buku tu sumer."
"hahahahahahahaha !"

My brother is growing up so fast. ;')

go go go go go go go read house rules by jodi picoult and the lullaby by sarah dessen. house rules is about this guy got uhm. this kind of penyakit and he's like crazy. something like that. and people suspect he's guilty of a murder. i read so sad. but haven't finish. but sedih seh. then the lullaby is about this perfect girl who choose not to fall in love but skali this random guy come into her life and he's very clumsy and very imperfect but they fell in love anyway. I've fnished reading and omgg, so sweet lah the story . chey mira dah start reading book uh seh . pick up th egood habbit kay. mcam faham. i wann do very well in my compos skali can send my story go newspaper ke ape. haha , berangaaaan ! kay bye.

yesterday meet guy at popular at cck. haha . got chemistry. tapi tknk pergi jauh. ;)

rindu sumer kawans kawans dekat kampong ev , temah , aini prasan cute, fi telur, ohyaohya nadiah, farah si suka tidur, wak tanjong tintin. kawan best friend sikit, hati tk sakit. tk bynk drama. kawan tkde lelaki, hati safe daripada terjatuh cinta. betul tk?

hi . i'm sooo bored. so i shall write benda2 yng I don't like or scared of. because i bored. so... tkmu bace lah . malu sayer. ;)
1) I'm most afraid of that ghost yng bernama pochong. betul tk spelling? tk kisah lah. kalo i have to jumpe a hantu , which I'm not hoping for, tkmu lahhh terjumpe mr gulagula.
2) i don't like it having more than two people in my room. betul, tk suker tk suker tk suker.
3) I have issues with cats. plus kittens. but not lions and tigers and all that. they make me crazy. bad way crazy. if I tertouch it or if it's too close to me, i will go crazy like kena sampok. no joke. last time when I was like 12? i eat at jb restaurant then got a lot of cats then all come to my table and i ended up diri atas meja and shoutshout and screamscream. So yah , embarrassing and scary.
4) i don't like bila people come to my house. unless i myself invite them.
5) i don't like to look people in the eye. it's seram.
6) I'm afraid of death. of my death and the ones I love.
7) I'm afraid of time.
8) I don't like both my physics and chemistry teacher. like fcking seriously don't like.
9) I don't like Justin bieber. is that his spelling? but i do like some of his songs which I admit is a little catchy.
10) I'm afraid of people looking at me when I'm doing something like reading or eating or whatever. bugs me to death. seriously.

I love . I love. I love..... Bruno Mars?

Sayer tk boleh dengar lagu eminem depan adik pasal adik slalu tanye ape maknenyer fuck. -.-"

hi . please read house rules by jodi picoult. please read all her books. awesome. kay bye.

friends with benefits. kay set.

This is everything random that's been going through my mind these few days. well... You know me. I think stupid stuffs. When I don't think about studies, it's like a train full of thoughts up there in my very tiny but random brain.
1) School is starting. And god, I'm freaking out. First up, I know for sure it's gonna be a hell lot chaotic. With a very huge part of life, Olevels and then the new environment without the girls, the new environment mixing with the sec fives, whoever they are. And then of course, being the absolute seniors in the school.
2)Next up, I'm a little scared by how time flies by and next thing you know, you're stepping into adulthood. It's those times when you looked back throughout your life and regretted that you ever wanted to grow up. Responsibility, commitment... It's a big world out there. Kay, what lah am I tengah membebel.
3)I told my father about a talk I had with one of my cousins whose a university graduate. It was a long time ago and I didn't tell anyone else because I never talk much with my cousins. They always call me bisu, which I have no problem with. But I asked her about the course child psychology and she told me not to take it as it's super hard and there's gonna be a lot of formulas blablabla. She said she took it in Uni and dropped it. Anyway, I talked to my father about it, finally opening up, and all he said that my cousin was looking down on me and all that stuffs. Because if not, she'd persuade and give me encouragement. So, what I thought was the best conversation I had with an adult in a while was only a joke. it crushed me that it only ended up a tease.
4) I've been needing the toilet everyday and so I worry how I'm gonna survive school because I don't like using outside toilet. -.-
5)I've been thinking a lot about death. Each night before sleeping, it's there in my head making arguments with myself. And so, everyone dies, I know. It's a part of life. But if you really think about it, it's a little terrifying. And although I try to talk myself out of it telling myself it's not yet the time, then I think again, what do I really know? Like Hazik passed away when he was 16 this year. I could die tomorrow for all I know. I'm afraid of what happens down there. Or up there. And are we just gonna die forever? When I was little, I always thought that when we die, we become someone else but I don't think that's true. Right? Afterlife is what scares me. And I don't wonder about whose gonna cry or party when I'm dead but I wonder what will ever happen to me when I die. No one knows this feelings.
6)Been thinking a lot about my love life which is, of course, full of monkeylove, wrongdecisions, desperationlove. But I don't get involve much. Only two relationships and to think of it as serious, well, we were young. And now, when I look back, it was really funny corny kinda way. But I've learnt my lesson and like what I wrote in FB, I don't think relationships work at this point of time because friends are a hell lot important. I lost a lot of my friends back in Primary school because of just a guy. And when we moved on, I not only lost him but also my friends because I spent all my time with just one person throughout primary years. But i don't hate people who are in a relationship now. couples are still cute, no matter how disgusting they can get.
7) I know it's a longshot and I'm just saying but not meaning, but I wanna study about people who are well... disabled and kind of like crazy. I want to observe them and learn how they deal with life. It's stupid I know and my father told me, "to study a crazy person, you must first be crazy." I know, so likethe kung fu panda quote thingy but no lah, I'm not gonna be like that. But yeah I know that I should be studying about myself first before bitching around studying people who are not really normal. But don't they make you wonder? Like how they become that way? How they keep up to life? And how they feel towards things? I'm curious.
8) I learnt a few stuffs about me and my family which I don't like to admit it, but I have to. All thanks to genes, I have most of my mother's characteristics. Oh, she's awesome, don't get me wrong. But I didn't get any of the awesome-ness. Instead, I had the insecurity. I like to observe her and I know she's insecure. Like she doesn't trust my father to go to the market alone and she thinks that I prefer someone else as my mother. Which I really don't and won't although sometimes I do. She talks to me about her problem and it's the same everytime and although she says she's got over it, she's not. Obviously. So I have most of that, excluding the not trusting my father thingy. My father, on the other hand, is hard to crack. But I learn and he too randomly tells me his problems. He's a person who likes to take control and doesn't like it when someone ruins the game plan and then ends up hating everything about it. I think I have that. And then, he's the type of person where you can give $1000 and walk though any shop and not spent it. I have that, I think. But he's impatient, and I have that too sadly. The good qualities, well idk. I'm still figuring that out although I really don't know. But I think I'm following my mum where I don't like to see my room all messed up and stuff. And I'm becoming like my dad when it comes to spending. My father once said that I was hardworking. Because he said that I'd wash dishes and help my mum in the kitchen. But honestly, I know I'm a lazy pig. I only did all that because.... I'm a girl. duh.
9) I like to watch cars. And wonder how it moves, I mean by tyre duh but how the insides work and who created it and..... It's stupid, I know.
10) And of course, I wonder how and why the hell I'm able to write all this stupid thing and waste so much time on it. And of course, I thank whoever who reads this whole thing for actually reading it. It's touching.
:)

"That's the whole problem here. I think they just might come out. Maybe they won't be perfect—I mean, they could be blurred, or cut off in the middle— but I'm thinking it's worth a shot"

sayaaaang budak ni sangatsangat . ^^

and to the girl who said, she hated malay guys and she didn't believe in relationships at this point of time, podahh ah. check2, dah ade mat lupernyer.
-.-

Some girls act like bitches so they won’t get hurt. Some girls are bitches because they got hurt.

It takes sadness to know what happiness is, noise to appreciate silence, and absence to value presence.

You ever wonder? What's life gonna be like? When you grow, when we grow. A girl, becoming a housewife and a man, working to support his family. You ever wonder what you'll become? if you'll be a responsible adult when you grow? If you know what's right or wrong or what's real or what's not? You ever wonder, what the future will be like if most of us girls just wanna seat around and do nothing while the guys, continue screwing the girls? You ever wondered what our future holds for us if teens nowadays only wanna walk around with parangs? You ever wonder? What'll become of you when the your loved ones, pass on. They're not gonna be there anymore and all you can do is pass on prayers to them. You ever wonder? When's your time? How'll you look like in that white cloth being laid to rest? You ever wonder about all of this?
=/

New phoneeee ! =DD But hmm. Idk really. Everything was so last minute . Asked the person can change already or not then they say can then my father ask me choose then I choose anyhow. I know right, so tk senonoh wanna choose phone. Idk, I looklook then this phone like caught my attention like love at first sight, LOL ^^ then straight away picked that one. taking it later. good or not? Sony Erricson the VivazPro thingy? I think. I know the video is HD. Kay, I'm so selenger lah. But I don't feel like changing my phone walaupun phone tu dah karat semacam. Pfffffft. Confused by the littlest things in the world ah kau, mira.
=)

Hahahah ! Look what I've found ! LOL ^^ Sweeet memoriees . The best malay mixed indian family in the worrrrrld.

my sweeeeetheart baby aimaaan. ^^

To the lady telur, hope you enjoyed today and the gift. =D
And to the people who loves buat-ing maksiat, tsktsktsk.

♥ ♥ ♥

and so i survived like what? two years, denying everything and still can't get over you. that sucks.

with my friends all pretty and plastered.

i wanna go northlight wit you caaan? idc if it's not a good place. your life is like... wrong but awesome. seriously.

i'm so saaaaaaaad can't tag along with my friends anymore. but i guess i deserve this after what i did. but honestly, it's not gonna stop me from doing it again.

bleed on that date. you won't know the pain.

sayaaaaaaaang baby aimaaaan so much ♥

Is it okay that you feel like the world is against your every move? Is it okay that you're addicted to something so bad but it feels so damn good? It is okay that you're missing your best friend's birthday celebration and letting down your friends? Is it okay that you're afraid of what's to come in the future? Is it okay that your father is going to United Kingdom and he won't be by your side anymore? Is it okay that your mother likes to borrow your money and forgets about paying back? Honestly, it everything going to be alright?
:(

*melts*

Awesooome .

Sayaaaang diorang. ^^

Alot of tk perlu pics because most of them from my irritating bro. Hehe ^^

Yeaahh. Whaddup korangs? Hehe, I'm baaaack. I didn't end up going Kedah with the rest of my aunts and grandparents but we went Mersing. Again -.-" While other peeps are enjoying their holiday at KL / Melaka all that I'm stuck in a kampung but pfffft, I admire kampung life. If you really open your eyes, there's more than just trees, cows, monkeys, mosquitoes, cats, wrecked houses and all those other kampung-ish stuffs. :)) Kay ah, I'm so freaking fed up. I've tried uploading the pictures but it's been like hours and still need 400 minutes. Wthh kan. So. Nah. This is the only thing. :( Nvm. Later I try diff sites.

Pity kan? Idk what's the animal called but my father say don't know what civit cat ? Whoever that hit this animal so freaking heartless leave this thing in the middle of the road. My father stopped and moved it to the side. It was like so freaking hard sehh. Pityyy ! :(

Idola baruku. Serena Van Der Woodsen / Blake Lively
FTW ! :))

Fail :(

HAHAHAHAHAHA ! "I don't mean to interrupt. Hi, I'm Ellen." LOL! See when the girl get to hug Katy perry and Ellen kena bilis one side, kelakar giler. LOL ! XD

Looooove . XD All black man but who cares :P

i had the time of my life and i never felt this way before and i swear this is true and i owe it all to youuu. ~

cuz your just my type, oh na na na na

I wanna be a billionaire so freaking badd ~ ;)

i haven't beli buku skolah . have you?

so if i hate your girlfriend for no reason does that me jealous? ohmygod 0.o

all you got to do is cross the line ;)

Conversation took place with me and dad, while he was eating.
XD
"Ayah, tadi adik bace buku science die."
"Buku science?"
"untuk primary 5 next year."
"bagus lah tu."
"tapi die ketawe2."
"kenape?"
"pasal die cumer bace psal reproduction. abeh die ketawe pasal die nampak the word penis"
*Dad tersedak and cough.*
"abeh die tk tau sebut the word vagina. Abeh die tunjuk2 mira gambar dalam buku tu sumer."
"hahahahahahahaha !"

My brother is growing up so fast. ;')

go go go go go go go read house rules by jodi picoult and the lullaby by sarah dessen. house rules is about this guy got uhm. this kind of penyakit and he's like crazy. something like that. and people suspect he's guilty of a murder. i read so sad. but haven't finish. but sedih seh. then the lullaby is about this perfect girl who choose not to fall in love but skali this random guy come into her life and he's very clumsy and very imperfect but they fell in love anyway. I've fnished reading and omgg, so sweet lah the story . chey mira dah start reading book uh seh . pick up th egood habbit kay. mcam faham. i wann do very well in my compos skali can send my story go newspaper ke ape. haha , berangaaaan ! kay bye.

yesterday meet guy at popular at cck. haha . got chemistry. tapi tknk pergi jauh. ;)

rindu sumer kawans kawans dekat kampong ev , temah , aini prasan cute, fi telur, ohyaohya nadiah, farah si suka tidur, wak tanjong tintin. kawan best friend sikit, hati tk sakit. tk bynk drama. kawan tkde lelaki, hati safe daripada terjatuh cinta. betul tk?

hi . i'm sooo bored. so i shall write benda2 yng I don't like or scared of. because i bored. so... tkmu bace lah . malu sayer. ;)
1) I'm most afraid of that ghost yng bernama pochong. betul tk spelling? tk kisah lah. kalo i have to jumpe a hantu , which I'm not hoping for, tkmu lahhh terjumpe mr gulagula.
2) i don't like it having more than two people in my room. betul, tk suker tk suker tk suker.
3) I have issues with cats. plus kittens. but not lions and tigers and all that. they make me crazy. bad way crazy. if I tertouch it or if it's too close to me, i will go crazy like kena sampok. no joke. last time when I was like 12? i eat at jb restaurant then got a lot of cats then all come to my table and i ended up diri atas meja and shoutshout and screamscream. So yah , embarrassing and scary.
4) i don't like bila people come to my house. unless i myself invite them.
5) i don't like to look people in the eye. it's seram.
6) I'm afraid of death. of my death and the ones I love.
7) I'm afraid of time.
8) I don't like both my physics and chemistry teacher. like fcking seriously don't like.
9) I don't like Justin bieber. is that his spelling? but i do like some of his songs which I admit is a little catchy.
10) I'm afraid of people looking at me when I'm doing something like reading or eating or whatever. bugs me to death. seriously.

I love . I love. I love..... Bruno Mars?

Sayer tk boleh dengar lagu eminem depan adik pasal adik slalu tanye ape maknenyer fuck. -.-"

hi . please read house rules by jodi picoult. please read all her books. awesome. kay bye.

friends with benefits. kay set.

This is everything random that's been going through my mind these few days. well... You know me. I think stupid stuffs. When I don't think about studies, it's like a train full of thoughts up there in my very tiny but random brain.
1) School is starting. And god, I'm freaking out. First up, I know for sure it's gonna be a hell lot chaotic. With a very huge part of life, Olevels and then the new environment without the girls, the new environment mixing with the sec fives, whoever they are. And then of course, being the absolute seniors in the school.
2)Next up, I'm a little scared by how time flies by and next thing you know, you're stepping into adulthood. It's those times when you looked back throughout your life and regretted that you ever wanted to grow up. Responsibility, commitment... It's a big world out there. Kay, what lah am I tengah membebel.
3)I told my father about a talk I had with one of my cousins whose a university graduate. It was a long time ago and I didn't tell anyone else because I never talk much with my cousins. They always call me bisu, which I have no problem with. But I asked her about the course child psychology and she told me not to take it as it's super hard and there's gonna be a lot of formulas blablabla. She said she took it in Uni and dropped it. Anyway, I talked to my father about it, finally opening up, and all he said that my cousin was looking down on me and all that stuffs. Because if not, she'd persuade and give me encouragement. So, what I thought was the best conversation I had with an adult in a while was only a joke. it crushed me that it only ended up a tease.
4) I've been needing the toilet everyday and so I worry how I'm gonna survive school because I don't like using outside toilet. -.-
5)I've been thinking a lot about death. Each night before sleeping, it's there in my head making arguments with myself. And so, everyone dies, I know. It's a part of life. But if you really think about it, it's a little terrifying. And although I try to talk myself out of it telling myself it's not yet the time, then I think again, what do I really know? Like Hazik passed away when he was 16 this year. I could die tomorrow for all I know. I'm afraid of what happens down there. Or up there. And are we just gonna die forever? When I was little, I always thought that when we die, we become someone else but I don't think that's true. Right? Afterlife is what scares me. And I don't wonder about whose gonna cry or party when I'm dead but I wonder what will ever happen to me when I die. No one knows this feelings.
6)Been thinking a lot about my love life which is, of course, full of monkeylove, wrongdecisions, desperationlove. But I don't get involve much. Only two relationships and to think of it as serious, well, we were young. And now, when I look back, it was really funny corny kinda way. But I've learnt my lesson and like what I wrote in FB, I don't think relationships work at this point of time because friends are a hell lot important. I lost a lot of my friends back in Primary school because of just a guy. And when we moved on, I not only lost him but also my friends because I spent all my time with just one person throughout primary years. But i don't hate people who are in a relationship now. couples are still cute, no matter how disgusting they can get.
7) I know it's a longshot and I'm just saying but not meaning, but I wanna study about people who are well... disabled and kind of like crazy. I want to observe them and learn how they deal with life. It's stupid I know and my father told me, "to study a crazy person, you must first be crazy." I know, so likethe kung fu panda quote thingy but no lah, I'm not gonna be like that. But yeah I know that I should be studying about myself first before bitching around studying people who are not really normal. But don't they make you wonder? Like how they become that way? How they keep up to life? And how they feel towards things? I'm curious.
8) I learnt a few stuffs about me and my family which I don't like to admit it, but I have to. All thanks to genes, I have most of my mother's characteristics. Oh, she's awesome, don't get me wrong. But I didn't get any of the awesome-ness. Instead, I had the insecurity. I like to observe her and I know she's insecure. Like she doesn't trust my father to go to the market alone and she thinks that I prefer someone else as my mother. Which I really don't and won't although sometimes I do. She talks to me about her problem and it's the same everytime and although she says she's got over it, she's not. Obviously. So I have most of that, excluding the not trusting my father thingy. My father, on the other hand, is hard to crack. But I learn and he too randomly tells me his problems. He's a person who likes to take control and doesn't like it when someone ruins the game plan and then ends up hating everything about it. I think I have that. And then, he's the type of person where you can give $1000 and walk though any shop and not spent it. I have that, I think. But he's impatient, and I have that too sadly. The good qualities, well idk. I'm still figuring that out although I really don't know. But I think I'm following my mum where I don't like to see my room all messed up and stuff. And I'm becoming like my dad when it comes to spending. My father once said that I was hardworking. Because he said that I'd wash dishes and help my mum in the kitchen. But honestly, I know I'm a lazy pig. I only did all that because.... I'm a girl. duh.
9) I like to watch cars. And wonder how it moves, I mean by tyre duh but how the insides work and who created it and..... It's stupid, I know.
10) And of course, I wonder how and why the hell I'm able to write all this stupid thing and waste so much time on it. And of course, I thank whoever who reads this whole thing for actually reading it. It's touching.
:)

"That's the whole problem here. I think they just might come out. Maybe they won't be perfect—I mean, they could be blurred, or cut off in the middle— but I'm thinking it's worth a shot"

sayaaaang budak ni sangatsangat . ^^

and to the girl who said, she hated malay guys and she didn't believe in relationships at this point of time, podahh ah. check2, dah ade mat lupernyer.
-.-

Some girls act like bitches so they won’t get hurt. Some girls are bitches because they got hurt.

It takes sadness to know what happiness is, noise to appreciate silence, and absence to value presence.

You ever wonder? What's life gonna be like? When you grow, when we grow. A girl, becoming a housewife and a man, working to support his family. You ever wonder what you'll become? if you'll be a responsible adult when you grow? If you know what's right or wrong or what's real or what's not? You ever wonder, what the future will be like if most of us girls just wanna seat around and do nothing while the guys, continue screwing the girls? You ever wondered what our future holds for us if teens nowadays only wanna walk around with parangs? You ever wonder? What'll become of you when the your loved ones, pass on. They're not gonna be there anymore and all you can do is pass on prayers to them. You ever wonder? When's your time? How'll you look like in that white cloth being laid to rest? You ever wonder about all of this?
=/

New phoneeee ! =DD But hmm. Idk really. Everything was so last minute . Asked the person can change already or not then they say can then my father ask me choose then I choose anyhow. I know right, so tk senonoh wanna choose phone. Idk, I looklook then this phone like caught my attention like love at first sight, LOL ^^ then straight away picked that one. taking it later. good or not? Sony Erricson the VivazPro thingy? I think. I know the video is HD. Kay, I'm so selenger lah. But I don't feel like changing my phone walaupun phone tu dah karat semacam. Pfffffft. Confused by the littlest things in the world ah kau, mira.
=)

Hahahah ! Look what I've found ! LOL ^^ Sweeet memoriees . The best malay mixed indian family in the worrrrrld.

my sweeeeetheart baby aimaaan. ^^

To the lady telur, hope you enjoyed today and the gift. =D
And to the people who loves buat-ing maksiat, tsktsktsk.

♥ ♥ ♥

and so i survived like what? two years, denying everything and still can't get over you. that sucks.

with my friends all pretty and plastered.

i wanna go northlight wit you caaan? idc if it's not a good place. your life is like... wrong but awesome. seriously.

i'm so saaaaaaaad can't tag along with my friends anymore. but i guess i deserve this after what i did. but honestly, it's not gonna stop me from doing it again.

bleed on that date. you won't know the pain.

sayaaaaaaaang baby aimaaaan so much ♥

Is it okay that you feel like the world is against your every move? Is it okay that you're addicted to something so bad but it feels so damn good? It is okay that you're missing your best friend's birthday celebration and letting down your friends? Is it okay that you're afraid of what's to come in the future? Is it okay that your father is going to United Kingdom and he won't be by your side anymore? Is it okay that your mother likes to borrow your money and forgets about paying back? Honestly, it everything going to be alright?
:(

*melts*

Awesooome .

Sayaaaang diorang. ^^

Alot of tk perlu pics because most of them from my irritating bro. Hehe ^^

Yeaahh. Whaddup korangs? Hehe, I'm baaaack. I didn't end up going Kedah with the rest of my aunts and grandparents but we went Mersing. Again -.-" While other peeps are enjoying their holiday at KL / Melaka all that I'm stuck in a kampung but pfffft, I admire kampung life. If you really open your eyes, there's more than just trees, cows, monkeys, mosquitoes, cats, wrecked houses and all those other kampung-ish stuffs. :)) Kay ah, I'm so freaking fed up. I've tried uploading the pictures but it's been like hours and still need 400 minutes. Wthh kan. So. Nah. This is the only thing. :( Nvm. Later I try diff sites.

Pity kan? Idk what's the animal called but my father say don't know what civit cat ? Whoever that hit this animal so freaking heartless leave this thing in the middle of the road. My father stopped and moved it to the side. It was like so freaking hard sehh. Pityyy ! :(

Idola baruku. Serena Van Der Woodsen / Blake Lively
FTW ! :))