Of course I never draw this lah . Been researching for my art and up till now I'm clueless. I know I should like jump off a bridge or something because I should already be starting on board 1. Anyway, I wanted to do fashion design on Domestic Pets but the thought of creating clothes out of animals really makes me feel so cruel. Although, like many people say, it's just drawing but eh , kesian you know. So now, I'm taking fashion design still but for Distorted. So , Ive gotto choose a subtopic. Then how? I was thinking like Halloween? or maybe like prom? Or like traditional costumes? Or like based on car parts? Or flowers? I honestly don't knowww.

"Eh ben, come here."
"What? I don't want take picture with you."
"What the hell? Who say I want take picture with you sia. You owe me somethingg."

Today was an awesomeeeeeeeeee Friday . Morning2, so paiseh me and Marf walk infront of the class and we climbed the stairs and didn't realize it was only third floor and shiok2 walk till someone say "eh ni kan third floor." Paiseeeh . Haha. Maths, with mr Wee today :) Malay, test Idk how doooooooooo! :( Chem, lab with Amiqah, besst :D, Eng, use comp ;)
After school went Farah's house and watched haunted changi, paranormal activity 2 and ngangkung . Hunted changi besst . I sat with Aini and omggg, we end up like lesbian partner hugging2 each other and got one part, she so scared till hug me pull my collar. Haha, wthh . Then went for the stupiddd talk and wah, so happy can see rob and joe face , lol. After that lepak-ed with Fathihah, Arina and Luqman and camwhored . Today I best of both worlds get to lepak with them all.

This is sooo my life theme song . ;)

I had an awesome day today because after so loong since 2010, me & the girls went lepak and we laughed about the most stupidest and cutest thing. XD

My monday wasn't all that bad in the end , hehehe ^^
Mr Venay and Mr Kahar never come for the first two period so we had two hours of free period, how awesome was that. :) English, we get to play with that headphone thingy, I seriously likeee, but I didn't record my reading because I was plain lazy . Oh yeahh, we got two new classmates . One is Ahmad Fattah and another is this chinese guy idk the name. Hope they'll get used to 409 . Anway, after that was ss, did groupwork with Fathihah and Luqman, I so looove them . And then two hours of maths with mr idk his name. 2 hours was super boring sey , i don't likee. Ohyah, shocked me how some people noticed I didn't attend come . Lol . always ppl won't really notice my whereabouts so I just keep my mouth shut but this time , alot prasan . it's great to be always invisible and quiet but once in a while having people looking at you isn't all that bad I guess .

"ayah tkya pergi lah , tkde paper lah . principle cumer nk berbual aje. bukan bbl dengan cikgu form teacher lah."
"tkper lah, why i cannot go?"
"pasal nnti ayah cari pasal, gaduh cam last year. I don't want sey ."
"eh saper tawu, ayah boleh kasi principle baru idea2 yang die tk pernah terfikir?"
"ohmygod, tkmu ah. don't go lah. i don't care. i don't let you go."
"tsk, tklah. mira fikir ayah ni gangster ke ape?"
"ah'ah lah . beh suker cari psal dengan orng. tsk, ayah tkya pergi lah. Diorng cumer berbual2, kenal2 kan teacher sumer. ayah mane kuase pasal tu sumer."
"tsk, kaylah2. i never go lah."
"yes ah . baek. kay thanks."
"eh . wait. ade free makanan?"
"huh? entah eh . ade kot? entah."
"oh then kalau gitu ayah nk pergi ah."
"wth!? ayah ni teruk ah ."

sayer sayang papa saya niii :)))

some things are meant to be broken. Imperfect. Chaotic. It's the universe's way of
providing contrast.

Tomorrow school starts bacck to normal , arghh -.-"
Everywhere is tengah so kecoh about camp, lol . Looks like a hell lot of fun . I didn't go and I can't wait to meet up with my gfs to hear their awesome stories . It's kinda funny now thinking back when how me and telur so kecoh on that first day being "partners in crime" and being so afraid and at last, nothing happened. lol ^^ this just proves that you cannot rob a bank with telurr. Tommorow monday, the most super mendak day out of all the five days . Physics with Venay and I have to start paying attention to his lesson instead of counting how many "okays" he says, P.E with Kahar which I do not like because it feels just so awkward with him because I know him as the teacher who my best friend hates, not the teacher who teaches me p.e, then eng with hantu which I guess isn't that bad, and then ss with natasha which i super hate because I always end up so sleepy, and last but not least, maths with godknowswho my maths teacher is now . i wann mr wee :(( Kay bye, hopefully tomorrow, I'll be sick or better, all the teacher sick ;)

"Amira, where you from?"
"Maths."
"In the library? Do what there?"
"got this like study group thing ah, study in smaller group for maths."
"why?"
"because we stupid."
Miss chua look at me so funny after I say that. lol . XDD
HELLLLLLLLLLO KORANGS. :))
Today was better than yesterday, confirm. because I so happy cikgu badariah tk dataaaaang! and niari wasn't at all so stressing with pelajaran. English play with this mic thingy so cool, kiteorng feeling2 jadi DJ , i like I like. :) Abeh maths I kena send down to library because I stupid and failed my test 6/20 and study with this teacher with only 5 other people. I understood and it was good, although I miss mr wee :( But nvm, gare2 olevel, mustmust pay attention to whoever my forever maths teacher is now. Then lit, act stupid and laughlaugh with telur like how other best friends act . then chem, i nva pay attention because I sleepaay. Abeh malay cikgu tk datang! Happy per . Then me and aini have fun talk about joe and rob , kekasih idaman kiteorng due, lol. star, stupid idk what we do. after school go MCD with gfs step nk blaja at last, just talktalk . kay bye, time for ryzaaaaaaaaal hotstuff ;)

Do you think I'm special?
Do you think I'm nice?
Am I bright enough to shine in your spaces?
Between the noise you hear, and the sounds you like
Are we just sinking the ocean of faces?
It can't be possible, the rain can fall
Only when its over our heads.
The sun is shining everyday, but it's far away.
Over the world that's dead.

Finally, Friday is hereeeeeeeeeeee :)
penat per, padahal baru second week. Haiyoo. Today pretty upset and stressed because of course, malay class. cikgu badariah is seriously keeping her eyes on me seh . No longer seating with temah instead with Hanani. Don't get me wrong, Hanani is super nice but i just don't like how cikgu come to me every 10 minutes to check up on me. It's like I'm THAT stupid in malay seh . which i am . i guess . because just now i didn't get to finish my surat rasmi because idk how to do . idk why but i don't think this should be sensitive and all but idk why I just super don't like it. Cikgu badariah is a good and caring teacher and all but entah eh why i'm feeling like this. amira you suck sia .

First period of school today was english which was super merepek and mengarut and i wish i can make an effort to pay attention in class, but i cannoooot! I always end up doodling or drawing or dreaming during english . kenape seh? worried sia. Then, malay which of course, I hate. We're gonna have to do lisan sia next week in front of the whole class without notes. See, more reason for me to hate malay class. fck. and then the practise paper, cikgu says budak band 1 must get 55/70 . But guess how much I got? 31/70 . Bagus kan? -.-" Art, mdam tasneem never come seh :( and I'm so stressed about my art olevel till now idk what to do . how leh? Then physics, Adib and Nik sat with me and then we have picnic eat epok2, seaweeds, keropoks, nutella all that lah . sedap jer makan dkat class. but adib and nik best, kelakar and gerek sungguh :D After school pergi Meridian JC which was super waste of time because we end up seating satu side lepak . budak jc sumer mcam faham . lol ^^ kay dah bye .

Mendak per, baru second week of school dah cam nak matiiiiiiiiiiii ! :(
Everything is so stressing and rimas seh . Venay, physic teacher haven't come back, god knows where he go lah, and that's kinda nice having free period but he need, need to come back soon sia because Olevel nk dtng. I so takut, everyday without fail even on weekends confirm someone will mention Olevel to me sia . wtf . And then, there's the budakbudak who just recieved Olevel results on Monday, they didn't really do well and watching them cry makes it a thousand times freakier for me. And oh yahh, malay class! I don't like, sumpah. Turns out, we kena kicked out and sent from ITRL air con room to 407 classroom which is all the way down to the first floor. Wtf kan . Kesiaan kiiteorng. Also, cikgu badariah kept on talking about "band 1 material." oh omg seh, buat orang stress. I don't understand malay, I don't. and I'm not band 1 material and I know I'm gonna drop and make a fool out of myself and embarrass myself because I can't keep up and keep on getting lowest for malay. asal seh they put me in band 1, asal!? everytime in malay class, I feel like crying because while everyone gets 10/10 or 9/10 I will get 6/10 or 5/10. and then, cikgu keeps repeating non stop that we have to score A1 or A2 . Giler pe. My malay last year pun tk sampai A seh . Wth . I'm so scared. I don't like malay. Tolong. :'(

Haha, whatthehell?! Feelingfeeling nak ambek gambar dengan Zac Efron.

HELLO ! :)
Just now went to Republic Poly and it was suppa awesoome and so many orang and schools and even woodgrove sec ada seh , omggg !! I like, I like. ^^ But I not happy because we rushrush like wtf, kalau boleh nk spend more time thereee, lol. Get to dismiss from there, hehe. so for the first time, while I already sampai home, my friends all otw back to their house. haha.

Second day of school.
First period was engilsh but we did nothing. I hope Miss Lim will start being fierce and all, because hell, I do not wanna fail my english for Olevel. Next was malay, we went to AVT join with the sec5. Kinda akward. But I guess we'll get used to it. And omggg, I saw my name in band 1 sia. I still up till now don't believe. I'm so stressed. I hope they won't be any re-banding or not, I'm gonna have to work my butt off sia to stay. No re-banding also I have to work my ass off because I don't belong there, terus terang I say. But Idk, betul ke my namer in band 1? Nvm, tomorrow ask Cikgu Badariah. She good teacher or not? Hmm. Anywayy, next was art, and guess what? My olevel paper is coming in next week. Scary sia. I freaked out. Next week. Even lesser than 1 month. Stressss. Idk what I should do. Maybe fashion design or painting. Or worst come to worst, that stupid graphic design. But idk, it's just all to fast knowing my Olevel coursework is already starting. Gonna be busy like hell sia. wtff. Kay and then, next was physic. Our teacher is venay. but he nva come. so another teacher come and take over and wan step like mane big teacher. wth seh. Kay dah . bye. nak tido. :P

So, it's back to school tomorrow. I'm not excited. Who is sia? My laptop is supeer rosak. Can't be charged, wtf. Sianz sia last day of holiday laptop spoilt. Now, using but I'm left 20% before it shuts down and I won't be able to use it ever again. :'(
Anyway, tomorrow what are we supposed to bring? i don't wanna bring anything but because I have to buy my books I have to bring a biggg bag. pffft. A big but empty bag. stupid. i don't wanna go to school tomorrow! don't wan don't wan !

Ah aiya, so the plan of uploading the vid of yesterday tk jadi because like always, my computer siow. Anyway, the video is kinda funny because few minutes after the fireworks end, this super big group of bangla start screaming and jumping and dancing and they did like a big circle and one of them stood in the middle and dance like holly shit like that. LOL. Then of course, mat reps just haave to make a fool out of themselves and stepped in and interfered. Then I didn't get this on video but one of the bangla fainted and his friends all carry him like he die already and ran back from the jetty laughing and screaming. Confirm drunk already sia. Drunk skali screw the girls there, sedap sia. The girls there all act like serious slut. malay girls especially buat malu. this one girl especially, first she never bra. obviously. then wear so open and then she jumpjump around act all slutty and flirty with her other mat reps LOL. But its a good thing because at that night, i supposed my parents look at her and all the other minah, they ought to be thankful they have a daughter so innocent like me and actually be thankful that at least, I still am in the right mind and know myself and my surroundings. My uncle was pissed and went all "ni sumer bukan islam. selam ade lah." I don't find it funny although it's supposed to? I wonder, if they're told that in their face, how'd they react?

"Are you ready?"
To this point, I still do not have the answer. I am thinking of where that question is leading to, I am thinking of the definition of that question and I am thinking what the hell are you asking me about. It could be a lot of things. You could mean are you ready for school or you could mean are you ready for adulthood or are you ready for your o levels or are you ready for another year. I shake my head, bassicially meaning that I'm not ready although I do not understand your question. But the truth is, I am not ready for anything at all. I am afraid of what's to come. I am afraid that I do not wish to open my eyes and know what day or date it is or when school starts.
Chey, speaking like Jodi picoult aje , mcam fahaam. lol ^^But really , I don't understand when my aunties or uncles and cousins go "are you ready?"

Of course I never draw this lah . Been researching for my art and up till now I'm clueless. I know I should like jump off a bridge or something because I should already be starting on board 1. Anyway, I wanted to do fashion design on Domestic Pets but the thought of creating clothes out of animals really makes me feel so cruel. Although, like many people say, it's just drawing but eh , kesian you know. So now, I'm taking fashion design still but for Distorted. So , Ive gotto choose a subtopic. Then how? I was thinking like Halloween? or maybe like prom? Or like traditional costumes? Or like based on car parts? Or flowers? I honestly don't knowww.

"Eh ben, come here."
"What? I don't want take picture with you."
"What the hell? Who say I want take picture with you sia. You owe me somethingg."

Today was an awesomeeeeeeeeee Friday . Morning2, so paiseh me and Marf walk infront of the class and we climbed the stairs and didn't realize it was only third floor and shiok2 walk till someone say "eh ni kan third floor." Paiseeeh . Haha. Maths, with mr Wee today :) Malay, test Idk how doooooooooo! :( Chem, lab with Amiqah, besst :D, Eng, use comp ;)
After school went Farah's house and watched haunted changi, paranormal activity 2 and ngangkung . Hunted changi besst . I sat with Aini and omggg, we end up like lesbian partner hugging2 each other and got one part, she so scared till hug me pull my collar. Haha, wthh . Then went for the stupiddd talk and wah, so happy can see rob and joe face , lol. After that lepak-ed with Fathihah, Arina and Luqman and camwhored . Today I best of both worlds get to lepak with them all.

This is sooo my life theme song . ;)

I had an awesome day today because after so loong since 2010, me & the girls went lepak and we laughed about the most stupidest and cutest thing. XD

My monday wasn't all that bad in the end , hehehe ^^
Mr Venay and Mr Kahar never come for the first two period so we had two hours of free period, how awesome was that. :) English, we get to play with that headphone thingy, I seriously likeee, but I didn't record my reading because I was plain lazy . Oh yeahh, we got two new classmates . One is Ahmad Fattah and another is this chinese guy idk the name. Hope they'll get used to 409 . Anway, after that was ss, did groupwork with Fathihah and Luqman, I so looove them . And then two hours of maths with mr idk his name. 2 hours was super boring sey , i don't likee. Ohyah, shocked me how some people noticed I didn't attend come . Lol . always ppl won't really notice my whereabouts so I just keep my mouth shut but this time , alot prasan . it's great to be always invisible and quiet but once in a while having people looking at you isn't all that bad I guess .

"ayah tkya pergi lah , tkde paper lah . principle cumer nk berbual aje. bukan bbl dengan cikgu form teacher lah."
"tkper lah, why i cannot go?"
"pasal nnti ayah cari pasal, gaduh cam last year. I don't want sey ."
"eh saper tawu, ayah boleh kasi principle baru idea2 yang die tk pernah terfikir?"
"ohmygod, tkmu ah. don't go lah. i don't care. i don't let you go."
"tsk, tklah. mira fikir ayah ni gangster ke ape?"
"ah'ah lah . beh suker cari psal dengan orng. tsk, ayah tkya pergi lah. Diorng cumer berbual2, kenal2 kan teacher sumer. ayah mane kuase pasal tu sumer."
"tsk, kaylah2. i never go lah."
"yes ah . baek. kay thanks."
"eh . wait. ade free makanan?"
"huh? entah eh . ade kot? entah."
"oh then kalau gitu ayah nk pergi ah."
"wth!? ayah ni teruk ah ."

sayer sayang papa saya niii :)))

some things are meant to be broken. Imperfect. Chaotic. It's the universe's way of
providing contrast.

Tomorrow school starts bacck to normal , arghh -.-"
Everywhere is tengah so kecoh about camp, lol . Looks like a hell lot of fun . I didn't go and I can't wait to meet up with my gfs to hear their awesome stories . It's kinda funny now thinking back when how me and telur so kecoh on that first day being "partners in crime" and being so afraid and at last, nothing happened. lol ^^ this just proves that you cannot rob a bank with telurr. Tommorow monday, the most super mendak day out of all the five days . Physics with Venay and I have to start paying attention to his lesson instead of counting how many "okays" he says, P.E with Kahar which I do not like because it feels just so awkward with him because I know him as the teacher who my best friend hates, not the teacher who teaches me p.e, then eng with hantu which I guess isn't that bad, and then ss with natasha which i super hate because I always end up so sleepy, and last but not least, maths with godknowswho my maths teacher is now . i wann mr wee :(( Kay bye, hopefully tomorrow, I'll be sick or better, all the teacher sick ;)

"Amira, where you from?"
"Maths."
"In the library? Do what there?"
"got this like study group thing ah, study in smaller group for maths."
"why?"
"because we stupid."
Miss chua look at me so funny after I say that. lol . XDD
HELLLLLLLLLLO KORANGS. :))
Today was better than yesterday, confirm. because I so happy cikgu badariah tk dataaaaang! and niari wasn't at all so stressing with pelajaran. English play with this mic thingy so cool, kiteorng feeling2 jadi DJ , i like I like. :) Abeh maths I kena send down to library because I stupid and failed my test 6/20 and study with this teacher with only 5 other people. I understood and it was good, although I miss mr wee :( But nvm, gare2 olevel, mustmust pay attention to whoever my forever maths teacher is now. Then lit, act stupid and laughlaugh with telur like how other best friends act . then chem, i nva pay attention because I sleepaay. Abeh malay cikgu tk datang! Happy per . Then me and aini have fun talk about joe and rob , kekasih idaman kiteorng due, lol. star, stupid idk what we do. after school go MCD with gfs step nk blaja at last, just talktalk . kay bye, time for ryzaaaaaaaaal hotstuff ;)

Do you think I'm special?
Do you think I'm nice?
Am I bright enough to shine in your spaces?
Between the noise you hear, and the sounds you like
Are we just sinking the ocean of faces?
It can't be possible, the rain can fall
Only when its over our heads.
The sun is shining everyday, but it's far away.
Over the world that's dead.

Finally, Friday is hereeeeeeeeeeee :)
penat per, padahal baru second week. Haiyoo. Today pretty upset and stressed because of course, malay class. cikgu badariah is seriously keeping her eyes on me seh . No longer seating with temah instead with Hanani. Don't get me wrong, Hanani is super nice but i just don't like how cikgu come to me every 10 minutes to check up on me. It's like I'm THAT stupid in malay seh . which i am . i guess . because just now i didn't get to finish my surat rasmi because idk how to do . idk why but i don't think this should be sensitive and all but idk why I just super don't like it. Cikgu badariah is a good and caring teacher and all but entah eh why i'm feeling like this. amira you suck sia .

First period of school today was english which was super merepek and mengarut and i wish i can make an effort to pay attention in class, but i cannoooot! I always end up doodling or drawing or dreaming during english . kenape seh? worried sia. Then, malay which of course, I hate. We're gonna have to do lisan sia next week in front of the whole class without notes. See, more reason for me to hate malay class. fck. and then the practise paper, cikgu says budak band 1 must get 55/70 . But guess how much I got? 31/70 . Bagus kan? -.-" Art, mdam tasneem never come seh :( and I'm so stressed about my art olevel till now idk what to do . how leh? Then physics, Adib and Nik sat with me and then we have picnic eat epok2, seaweeds, keropoks, nutella all that lah . sedap jer makan dkat class. but adib and nik best, kelakar and gerek sungguh :D After school pergi Meridian JC which was super waste of time because we end up seating satu side lepak . budak jc sumer mcam faham . lol ^^ kay dah bye .

Mendak per, baru second week of school dah cam nak matiiiiiiiiiiii ! :(
Everything is so stressing and rimas seh . Venay, physic teacher haven't come back, god knows where he go lah, and that's kinda nice having free period but he need, need to come back soon sia because Olevel nk dtng. I so takut, everyday without fail even on weekends confirm someone will mention Olevel to me sia . wtf . And then, there's the budakbudak who just recieved Olevel results on Monday, they didn't really do well and watching them cry makes it a thousand times freakier for me. And oh yahh, malay class! I don't like, sumpah. Turns out, we kena kicked out and sent from ITRL air con room to 407 classroom which is all the way down to the first floor. Wtf kan . Kesiaan kiiteorng. Also, cikgu badariah kept on talking about "band 1 material." oh omg seh, buat orang stress. I don't understand malay, I don't. and I'm not band 1 material and I know I'm gonna drop and make a fool out of myself and embarrass myself because I can't keep up and keep on getting lowest for malay. asal seh they put me in band 1, asal!? everytime in malay class, I feel like crying because while everyone gets 10/10 or 9/10 I will get 6/10 or 5/10. and then, cikgu keeps repeating non stop that we have to score A1 or A2 . Giler pe. My malay last year pun tk sampai A seh . Wth . I'm so scared. I don't like malay. Tolong. :'(

Haha, whatthehell?! Feelingfeeling nak ambek gambar dengan Zac Efron.

HELLO ! :)
Just now went to Republic Poly and it was suppa awesoome and so many orang and schools and even woodgrove sec ada seh , omggg !! I like, I like. ^^ But I not happy because we rushrush like wtf, kalau boleh nk spend more time thereee, lol. Get to dismiss from there, hehe. so for the first time, while I already sampai home, my friends all otw back to their house. haha.

Second day of school.
First period was engilsh but we did nothing. I hope Miss Lim will start being fierce and all, because hell, I do not wanna fail my english for Olevel. Next was malay, we went to AVT join with the sec5. Kinda akward. But I guess we'll get used to it. And omggg, I saw my name in band 1 sia. I still up till now don't believe. I'm so stressed. I hope they won't be any re-banding or not, I'm gonna have to work my butt off sia to stay. No re-banding also I have to work my ass off because I don't belong there, terus terang I say. But Idk, betul ke my namer in band 1? Nvm, tomorrow ask Cikgu Badariah. She good teacher or not? Hmm. Anywayy, next was art, and guess what? My olevel paper is coming in next week. Scary sia. I freaked out. Next week. Even lesser than 1 month. Stressss. Idk what I should do. Maybe fashion design or painting. Or worst come to worst, that stupid graphic design. But idk, it's just all to fast knowing my Olevel coursework is already starting. Gonna be busy like hell sia. wtff. Kay and then, next was physic. Our teacher is venay. but he nva come. so another teacher come and take over and wan step like mane big teacher. wth seh. Kay dah . bye. nak tido. :P

So, it's back to school tomorrow. I'm not excited. Who is sia? My laptop is supeer rosak. Can't be charged, wtf. Sianz sia last day of holiday laptop spoilt. Now, using but I'm left 20% before it shuts down and I won't be able to use it ever again. :'(
Anyway, tomorrow what are we supposed to bring? i don't wanna bring anything but because I have to buy my books I have to bring a biggg bag. pffft. A big but empty bag. stupid. i don't wanna go to school tomorrow! don't wan don't wan !

Ah aiya, so the plan of uploading the vid of yesterday tk jadi because like always, my computer siow. Anyway, the video is kinda funny because few minutes after the fireworks end, this super big group of bangla start screaming and jumping and dancing and they did like a big circle and one of them stood in the middle and dance like holly shit like that. LOL. Then of course, mat reps just haave to make a fool out of themselves and stepped in and interfered. Then I didn't get this on video but one of the bangla fainted and his friends all carry him like he die already and ran back from the jetty laughing and screaming. Confirm drunk already sia. Drunk skali screw the girls there, sedap sia. The girls there all act like serious slut. malay girls especially buat malu. this one girl especially, first she never bra. obviously. then wear so open and then she jumpjump around act all slutty and flirty with her other mat reps LOL. But its a good thing because at that night, i supposed my parents look at her and all the other minah, they ought to be thankful they have a daughter so innocent like me and actually be thankful that at least, I still am in the right mind and know myself and my surroundings. My uncle was pissed and went all "ni sumer bukan islam. selam ade lah." I don't find it funny although it's supposed to? I wonder, if they're told that in their face, how'd they react?

"Are you ready?"
To this point, I still do not have the answer. I am thinking of where that question is leading to, I am thinking of the definition of that question and I am thinking what the hell are you asking me about. It could be a lot of things. You could mean are you ready for school or you could mean are you ready for adulthood or are you ready for your o levels or are you ready for another year. I shake my head, bassicially meaning that I'm not ready although I do not understand your question. But the truth is, I am not ready for anything at all. I am afraid of what's to come. I am afraid that I do not wish to open my eyes and know what day or date it is or when school starts.
Chey, speaking like Jodi picoult aje , mcam fahaam. lol ^^But really , I don't understand when my aunties or uncles and cousins go "are you ready?"