Olevels feel like... Idk. It's just the moment when you really seat there in the hall and they're asking you to do this do that, take your ezlink/IC out, paste the barcode there then you feel like you've come such a long way and you've done so much and if you mess it up, it's just... damn you know. wasted. I've wasted my opportunity. There goes my A, there goes my B, there goes my hard work, there goes every hope I had. When I checked with the other students, most of my answers were wrong. This sucks. You don't know how my feeling is right now. I'm dissapointed, I'm heartbroken, I'm sad but most of all I feel like I've lost myself in my own world of sorrow. Ask me what I did today, all I did was thought about how I could have done better. I don't know where my mistake was. I don't know if I lack of revision or I'm just not smart in malay or it's just the paper. I feel doomed because my parents have high hopes for me. My aunties and uncles say "Confirm can get A lahh" like it's so damn easy. I don't know what to do now. I wanna cry out loud then drown myself in my own pool of tears. It's wasted . The coaching, the homeworks, the hopes the cikgu Badariah and Ayesha had on me. I'm tired and I don't know if I can take it any longer anymore. Writing this just makes me wanna cry. I've never felt like this, so worthless, so clueless. Usually, I won't bother. But this is olevel. It's different. No matter how much I try to forget about it, it's just there. I won't forget. Because I screwed up. BAD.

Olevels feel like... Idk. It's just the moment when you really seat there in the hall and they're asking you to do this do that, take your ezlink/IC out, paste the barcode there then you feel like you've come such a long way and you've done so much and if you mess it up, it's just... damn you know. wasted. I've wasted my opportunity. There goes my A, there goes my B, there goes my hard work, there goes every hope I had. When I checked with the other students, most of my answers were wrong. This sucks. You don't know how my feeling is right now. I'm dissapointed, I'm heartbroken, I'm sad but most of all I feel like I've lost myself in my own world of sorrow. Ask me what I did today, all I did was thought about how I could have done better. I don't know where my mistake was. I don't know if I lack of revision or I'm just not smart in malay or it's just the paper. I feel doomed because my parents have high hopes for me. My aunties and uncles say "Confirm can get A lahh" like it's so damn easy. I don't know what to do now. I wanna cry out loud then drown myself in my own pool of tears. It's wasted . The coaching, the homeworks, the hopes the cikgu Badariah and Ayesha had on me. I'm tired and I don't know if I can take it any longer anymore. Writing this just makes me wanna cry. I've never felt like this, so worthless, so clueless. Usually, I won't bother. But this is olevel. It's different. No matter how much I try to forget about it, it's just there. I won't forget. Because I screwed up. BAD.